Wednesday, 11 September 2024

Hurt

I remembered his birthday and I have been making plans for it for months now and I wanted it to be a day we both will cherish forever. But unfortunate we had some issues before his birthday and I was really hurt that I decided not to wish him or say anything. 
When I think of those words he told me I just can't believe a man who had told me how much he loves me and want to spend his life with me will say how much he regret been with me, loving me and helping me during when I needed it most. I felt betrayed and every single promises broken too. Despite that I still never gave up on him till he used the word cool, then I understood that his ego , pride and way of thinking wont let him admit or say sorry.  I wonder why tell someone that has always loved u , had your back and even shared there family with you that if things don't with out we'll as u plan  u will let her go and fine someone else. Did it ever occur to u that u both should have talk about it together before making such decisions. Do u think is okay to think someone is disrespect because of how the chose to react to some setting things. Have u sat down and think of how many times u have disrespected her by talking to your ex and even letting her know u did, talking to her rudely just to prove a point, walking out dead of the night knowing is not safe for u and keeping her in suspends think something bad might happen, if you talking to people or saying hi to them is no problem but when I do it becomes disrespectful because am a woman. I know have messed up in some places and things which u said u didn't like and I said sorry and never repeated it again. When two people from different culture,country  or even beliefs decides to be together and truly love and want to spend their life's together those things will never be a hindrance.